When night falls, i call out for love & devotion.

In this place where no one comes, i'll try to express myself.

I don know what made me so upset. Partially because of YOU. Some people are just biased, to the extreme kind. Bias with every single guy around me.It doesnt really matter now, really. IF you don like the way i live my life, don like the people i hang out with, you can just go away and stop to irritate me. What do you gain by that ? A sense of accomplishment ? ZZZ ! It just makes me think of the past, a past that i wont say i want to forget. After so long, i thought we can be alot better, communicate better. But i was wrong. You nvr knew what i wanted after all. Oh well, who are you to me anyway, you don owe me anything. I shall just get over it.

Another problem - i might ...

It cant be right ?! I'm so not ready. & i cannot tahan this kind of life. 

Yeah, got back my results. & it's like shyt ! GPA only 2.583 . zzzz ! Damn fucking low lor . Don know how am i gonna go Massey Uni -.- All because of me. Who ask me don work hard & study like hell. Who ask me wanna go out & enjoy everyday. Nbcb, Yishi you better wake up now & start working hard ! I got a D+ for CP4001 - this confirm decrease my GPA since it has 4 credits. & i dont even have a freakking A , highest only B+ . Haiyo, damn upset right now. Dont care liao lor ! Next sem gonna work twice/ triple as hard !

Ya right, i dont need you to tell me how much i'm valued. You think in this motherfucking whole wide world, only you knows how much i'm valued ? HAHA ? & let me tell you, i'm priceless ! Got that ? Priceless ! Dont you think you're such a sore loser ? Just that i don wanna try to turn around anymore, you give me this fucking attitude? I'm not owing you anything you know ?! Or maybe you wan your money which you spent on me back ? Just name the price man ! & I WILL FUCKING TRY TO RETURN YOU EVERY SINGLE CENT ! Say until like only you're the only one who is so damn nbcb miserable. Come on lah, you make me laugh -.-  You say you wanna revenge ? L-O-L ! & your revenge is not doing on other ppl, is doing on yourself ? Go ahead lor. If you really wanna torture yourself, den i really have nth to say. I just will pity your family, especially your ahma & ahgong nia. I know what you gonna do is just to make me guilty. & i tell you, you will win. Cos i confirm will be guilty. - if thats what you wan, i give it to you man. Ask yourself why we cant be friends. Is you don wanna peace with me de lor. I got go disturb you or wad meh. Why always i have to get fucked up by you. When we were tgt, you oso liddat. Always think that the whole world owe you and you are always right. Still wanna say about our past. Say what you should not have come back & pity me 2 years ago. YEAH, YOU SHOULD NOT & I REGRETTED TO LET YOU PITY ME BACK . I'M JUST SO STUPID ! I SHOULD HAVE MOVED ON MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU. You say i nvr give you any chance ? Then what's make you think that i can tgt with you for so long ? Dumb uh you ? Do you think that you are really that good ? How many times have you neglected me ? DO you even fucking think of me when you can sit there & play games for so damn long. When you control my life so much till wan go down eat with my friends oso cannot, did you thought of my feelings ? Staying at home alone the whole day while you were outside @ bugis enjoying, did i even complain ? After i'm so tired now, i decided to let go already. Now, you keep pestering me ? Said that you would change. Yes, for this 7 months, you might have changed alot. But my heart is not with you anymore, so what's the point ? Not only you can be fucking in love with me de lor . What about you lei ? Only after losing me already den tell me you would change. Still say i'm giving you cold shoulder ? Who's the one giving cold shoulders ? Sms me & scold me ? Say i don need to block you, can just del msn & phone contact ? HAHHAHAH - who's the one doing it. All thanks to you, this is the first time i wrote such a long post.  & isnt that good enough ? You said you confirm can treat me better than last time, den why are you hurting me now ? Trust takes a long time to develop & in sec, it can be crushed. Didnt you know that ? I don understand why i must stay up so late now to type all these shyt out. It's just irks me and i don know who to turn to. I'm upset...really upset. Seems like you dont understand me that well...

 My D.I.Y nails :)

Uh-huh. Today maths paper is a killer to me :( To most of them, it might be an easy paper. Hais, i really sucks at maths. & my life would be ruin by maths ! Maybe it's oso my fault for giving up, not putting much effort on it. Well, no point crying over spill milk, i guess i just have to moved on and concentrate on other modules. Yeah, poly might be fun, but when it comes to exams and tests, i really hate it man...

Ohya, maybe a few days later, i will lock this blog up and make this my personal diary. But don worry, i will still update on blogspot. Nahs, i sound stupid. As if i got tons of readers liddat. But it's alright, haha. One thing i like about blog is that i can look back to old posts. It definately reminds me of all the happy things. Although there might be some unhappy posts, i guess most of them were happy and cheerful posts ? Yeaps, that is another aim - To achieve a happy lifestyle ! I guess i did quite well ? Lol . &&& looking back at those posts will make me smile and i might even laugh at those old jokes. I still can spot some typo errors sia. Ohgosh, how can i made such mistakes! I miss Literature and i miss everyone from Lit class. Hais, i miss how we used to discuss about stories/ poems together. All the fun and laughters we had...

Sometimes i wonder, have i made any changes ? Even if i did, is it the harsh environment changed me ? Or is it someone or something ? & i realised, i am not who i am. I realised that i'm not as cheerful as before, not as pessimistic as before, not as fun to be with as before and etc... Now, what is going wrong with me. Ya right, maybe i'm just have PMS -.- When i emo, i will always think, who created all these matters. Is it god ? Why did he wants to create this earth ? What is his purpose ? Is it necessary to create emotions like sad/hate/angry/etc ? & the answers, i might not find out. Lol.

Pardon all the stupid things i've said. Haha ! It's the midnight of the night and i spouting some nonsense that's all x.x Ohya, please comment on my nails alright ! :D

   Yishi & Emily.

                                          Yishi & Emily's highscore :)

Wasted another day again...I haven start my revision :( Ohgawd ! Tmr is Maths paper and yet, i haven even start revising! I guess laziness took over me again x.x Just don know why, i don feel like studying anymore. Like totally give up. Lol. Tmr i shall reach sch at 1pm and study last min till paper starts ! >.< Wish me lots of luck ! I seriously hate mugging. Holiday please come here quickly ! But i have 1 good news ! I did my nails today ! Muahahahh ! Shall upload the photo next time.. Lazy to upload lah ~ Haha ! =x Stay tuned alright?